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How Can I Love You? Happy Ending Part 2

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***Part 2***

“(f/n)!” Your gaze shifted from Mike’s profile to rest on Eren as he ran over to you with concern in his eyes.

How can he still look at me with such concern in his eyes? Those wonderful turquoise eyes… Stop it, (f/n)! But why? I tried to kill him and I blatantly left him, so why do you still look at me with concern?!

“(f/n), your face… Did Mikasa do this to you?” Eren’s turquoise eyes stared deep into your (e/c) eyes and you could clearly see the love laced with concern and worry within them. Instead of answering Eren, which was actually still not possible as the gag was still over your mouth, (duh come on Eren), you just looked away, unwanted tears threatening to spill out onto the dusty floor.

“She resisted and we did what we were told was allowed if she were to resist us.” Mikasa’s dull voice answered from behind Eren, her black eyes still burning with anger. You let out a low growl and your eyes hardened into (e/c) chips.

“Tch, stop that, brat.” Levi came over and slapped you across the face, your (s/c) skin that was slightly turning purple now became a bright red. You were too shocked to do anything but stare at the gag stained with blood that was now on the floor, knocked loose from Levi’s blow. You didn’t even turn when you felt Eren leave your side, and it wasn’t until you heard fighting noises that you actually looked up. What you saw though, shocked you beyond anything that had happened so far.

You looked up and saw that Eren was on top of Levi, punching him over and over again, and Levi was actually having trouble trying to land a blow on Eren. What is going on…? Eren’s not stronger than Levi… Plus, Levi would never let himself get beat up by Eren.

“Don’t you dare touch her, you bastard! Touch her one more time and I’ll make sure you go to hell!”

“Eren…” You quietly called out, still shocked from Levi’s slap. This is so pathetic, I can’t even talk normally. Why is Levi’s slap doing this to me? Levi was no longer struggling to attack Eren, but was focusing on trying to defend his face and vital organs. “E-Eren!” You cried out to the brunette-haired boy, and when he turned, you saw such anger in his normally bright turquoise eyes that you slightly recoiled in fear. His eyes softened as soon as he saw your fear.

“(f-f/n)...” You turned your head away, and felt hands pick you up from the ground bridal-style.

“Cadet (l/n), we’re going to have a talk with you in the dungeons. I’m sorry we can’t talk in my office, but we can’t take any risks, okay?” Erwin’s calm voice stilled your growing fear and panic, so you just simply nodded.

~Time Skip~ (Wow, first one, I’m proud)

“Cadet (l/n), Hanji has told us what you told her after your… failed experiment.” You stayed quiet, looking at the shackles on your wrists and ankles. “Is it true that you hear a voice in your head telling you to kill Eren?”

“Do you actually believe that? Most people would say I’m going crazy or something for hearing a voice in my head.”

“I will listen to everything you have to say before I judge you.” Erwin’s ice blue eyes pierced your (e/c) ones, with a hard, yet understanding look.

You sighed, knowing that he would still think of you as crazy at the end of your explanation. “Well, this voice didn’t say to kill Eren specifically, but it said to kill Titans, and since Eren was in his Titan form I attacked him. But the thing is, I didn’t tell my body to attack Eren, it was attacking on its own will, or the voice’s will… I really have no idea why that happened. I don’t remember anything that might’ve happened in the past that would lead to this.” Your normal snarky and confident voice was replaced by this pleading and shaky one instead.

Erwin simply closed his eyes in thought as you felt tears fill up in your eyes again. It was silent as Erwin kept on thinking and you tried to keep your tears in. Hanji was there as well, but for once, the normally loud brunette was completely silent as she watched your exchange.

I’m going to die, the Commander is not going to believe me. I mean, who would believe me, I’m saying that I hear a voice in my head and then I have no control over my body… Maybe I really am crazy.

“We’re going to keep you under surveillance for awhile. During that time, we’ll keep you here in the dungeons and Hanji will take you out to do some experiments on your shifting. Until we figure out why the voice is there and what to do about it, Levi will also be your guard 24/7. I’m sorry to make you go through all of this, but we can’t risk anything.” You looked up and blinked at Erwin with big, (e/c), deer eyes with tears silently falling on your (s/c) cheeks.

“Y-you actually believe me…?” Erwin just looked at you and smiled before walking out of the dungeons. Levi came down and stood in front of your cell, peering at you through the bars like someone seeing a wild, exotic beast for the first time.

“Oi, brat. Don’t try to pull any dumb shit, or else you die, got it?” You nodded quickly, fearful of incurring anymore of Levi’s wrath.

“Calm down, Shorty! (f/n) will be fine, right?” Hanji came over to the two of you and gave you a big smile. You gave a small smile back, and nodded. Levi gave a “tch” and walked across to the bench across from the cell and sat down. “(f/n), we’re going to take you out to the forest for you to shift tomorrow and see if the voice appears again, alright?” You nodded again, and wiped the ghost of old tears from your face.

“Get some sleep, brat. You too, Shitty Glasses.” Levi’s bored voice drifted between the two of you and you laid down on your bed as told.

~The Next Day~ (Is this a time skip? Yeah? Alright, two so far…)

“(f/n), do you still have that knife I gave you the other day?”

“Uh, I actually lost it when I was running away the other day…” You sheepishly looked at the ground, not wanting to admit your mistake.

“That’s alright, (f/n)! I have another one, just don’t lose it this time.” Hanji came over to you and handed you a small knife identical to the one you got yesterday. “Remember, just have a strong purpose in your mind when you cut yourself. Don’t worry about hurting us, yesterday you didn’t do anything to us. Levi will cut you out if anything happens though.” Hanji put your fears to rest, and you nodded confidently. Hanji walked back to where Levi was waiting, and gave you a thumbs up. You quickly cut your hand while thinking about transforming into a Titan.

Steam and a bright flash of light appeared where you were standing, accompanied with a big boom like thunder. Then, your huge 15 meter Titan appeared and cast a shadow over the other two standing.

Well, so far so good… Some time passed while you took in the sights around you.

“(f/n), Levi’s going to come and cut you out in two minutes! Try to pull out of your Titan in that time!” Hanji’s voice floated through the air, up your Titan body to your ears. You thought about leaving your Titan body, but found yourself still looking down on the forest. You suddenly felt your body being pulled away from your Titan body, and saw the now empty Titan corpse.

“Tch, so troublesome. Do you know that, (l/n)?”

Oh, so I didn’t do it by myself… You were brought down to the patiently waiting Hanji who was looking at you with hunger in her eyes.

“So, did you hear the voice again?” Hanji’s voice was filled with excitement and anticipation.

“Actually, no… I’m sorry, I know that I just wasted time today.” You felt on the brink of tears, again, at the frustration of being unable to progress with the experiments.

“It’s okay, (f/n). This helps us too. I now have a new theory about this voice that appears inside of your head. Let’s go back and talk to Erwin.”

***

“Erwin, I believe I have a theory about the voice in (f/n)’s head when she shifts into a Titan.” You, Hanji, Levi, and Erwin were in the dungeons once more, with you in the cell and the other three were sitting on the bench.

“Alright, what is it Hanji?”

Hanji jumped up and started pacing back and forth. “So, I believe that the voice inside of (f/n)’s head only comes out when she’s in her Titan form and there are Titans around her. Today, during the experiment, (f/n) didn’t do anything like search out Titans, so she was in control of her body. However, when Eren was in his Titan form, (f/n) said that the voice appeared and then her body attacked him. This is my theory, and I would like to experiment one more time to see if (f/n) attacks Eren’s Titan form, but I don’t want to risk either of their lives, so I have to go on what we’ve already done.”

“Hmm… We’re going on a very small expedition in a few days. I want to bring Eren and (f/n) along as well. However, they will be in different squads and will always remain a 100 feet radius from each other to ensure that if they shift, (f/n) will not try to attack Eren. Levi, (f/n) will be placed in your squad so you can watch over her, and Eren will be in Hanji’s squad.” Erwin got up from the bench and walked out of the dungeon. Hanji and Levi followed, the latter pausing to give you a small glance before finally walking out of the dungeon.

You sighed with relief as everyone left, not realizing how much stress this whole situation was causing you. “What has happened to me? I used to be so strong, but now, I’m just-just like this…”

“You’re still really strong, (f/n). Most people would just try to kill themselves or something, but you're still holding on.” You snapped your head up to see bright turquoise eyes staring at you.

“Eren, you shouldn’t be here. It’s dangerous to be around me, especially since Levi could come back at any moment and then beat you up for being here.”

“I’m glad that you’re worried about me, it makes me really happy. But, I actually asked Levi to have some alone time with you. That’s why he’s not here right now. He said it’s safe because you don’t have a weapon and you’re chained, but I only get a few minutes with you.” Eren smiled happily at you, and you felt a pang of guilt in your chest.

Even after I tried to kill Eren, he still loves me. And I was just going to run away from him forever, I wasn’t even thinking about how he feels. He must’ve been worried about me this entire time…

“Hey, (f/n)...” You tilted your head slightly to show that you were paying attention to the brunette boy. “Why were you going to run away? I mean, the Commander would've figured something out, I mean it's only been a day and he's already got a plan, and we weren’t going to hurt you.”

You sighed, dreading this question more than facing all the Titans in the world. “I didn’t want to put you in danger. I tried to kill you, Eren! I didn’t want that happening ever again.” You looked down, avoiding Eren’s painful gaze. It was quiet for awhile and all you heard was yours and Eren’s steady breathing. Suddenly, you felt soft and gentle lips on yours, and your eyes widened in shock. Before you could react, the owner of the lips moved back and embraced you, burying their head into your shoulder. You could smell the familiar scent of cinnamon and immediately knew that it was Eren holding you.

“You stupid, stupid girl. We live in danger everyday, but being by your side makes it so that I can live through the fear of those dangers. Don’t you ever leave me again, (f/n). If you leave, then I’ll just fall apart. Please, don’t leave me, please.” Eren cried softly into your shoulder, tears dampening your shirt. You gently placed your arms around him and soothingly rubbed his back. “Promise me you won’t leave me! I love you so, so, so much.”

“...I promise, Eren. I will never leave you ever again because I love you too.”

~10 years later~

“Honey, wake up, it’s already 11.” You groaned and slowly opened your eyes to see Eren standing over you with a sweet smile on his face. You groaned again and turned over on your side, burying your face into the pillow and blocking out the light. Eren sighed, used to your usual morning antics. Normally, he would let you sleep some more, but today was different. Eren sat on the bed, and gently stroked your shoulder. When you showed no response, Eren moved his hand from your shoulder down to your waist. He started to tickle you, as you were extremely ticklish, and you started to laugh and thrash around.

“S-stop, E-Eren!” Tears started to form as Eren didn’t stop and continued his tickling attack.

“I’ll only stop if you wake up, (f/n).”

“F-fine, I-I’ll g-get u-up!” You shouted, finding it difficult to breathe from all the laughing Eren had caused. Satisfied, Eren stopped tickling you, and gently kissed you on your cheek. 10 years of being together with Eren, being married for 3 of them, and he could still make a slight blush arise to your cheeks.

“Be down in 5 minutes, or I’m coming back up and you won’t get away so easily.” Eren walked out of the room and down the stairs to your kitchen. Sighing, you got out of bed, your stomach still slightly hurting from laughter, and changed out of your pajamas into still comfortable clothing. Then, you ran a brush through your hair and went to brush your teeth. When you were finished, you walked down the stairs to see a plate of eggs, bacon, and a pancake with coffee and a bouquet of flowers on the kitchen table. Next to it, stood a grinning Eren.

“What’s all this for?” You gaped at the sight, and slowly walked over to the table. “Today’s not our anniversary or anything.”

Eren chuckled, “I know that, silly. But today is the day that you promised to never leave me 10 years ago. I wanted to celebrate that because you kept your promise and we got through everything together.”

You covered your mouth with one hand and started to quietly sob as you recalled the harsh events the two of you had to go through. Even though the war was over and all the Titans were defeated, you two were still Titan shifters, and you still had that voice in your head that told you to kill Titans. However, through a lot of planning and strategy, you had never harmed Eren again after that one experiment because you were never near him when the two of you shifted.

“Eren… I love you so much.” You wrapped your arms around your still grinning husband and held onto him as if you were never going to let him go. Eren wrapped his arms around you and soothingly stroked your back, as you had done 10 years ago, to stop your crying.

“I love you too, (f/n).” Eren pulled back and tilted your head up, and quickly brought his lips down onto yours. It was a gentle and tender kiss, almost as if it was your first kiss, and you could taste saltiness in it. You pulled back to see tears running down his face, and you brought your lips back to his and continued your kiss. Both of you pulled back after awhile and you rested your head on Eren’s toned chest.

I used to ask how he can love me because of what I did, but now, the question is no longer ‘How can you love me?’ the question is ‘How can I not love you?
Soo here's part 2 for y'all! Hope you guys liked it!

Shingeki no Kyojin/Attack on Titan and all of its characters belong to Hajime Isayama.

You belong to Eren:wink kiss: 
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I was so sucked in this story. I came to the first time skip and read it. For a second I was confused. I kept reading it again then laughed at it. This story was really good! Keep up the very good work!